This is My Story...

 

     I'd love to tell you that this is a story about a "friend" of mine, but I have to be honest and tell you that this was my struggle. While my answer to the ongoing question of suicide has been etched in stone, the downward spiral of depression continues to try and creep into my thoughts and heart. It was a long and laborious journey out of the dark pit of despair and I'm ever thankful to God and the amazing people He placed in my life to show not only that life is worth living but also that I'm worth the painstaking time to invest in.

 

     As suicide is an equal opportunity employer it amazes me how, even with its rampant and uncontested growth, that people continue to act like it's something that will never affect their life in some way or another. I was one of those people until I found myself under the heavy, breath taking pressure of this silent serial killer. I couldn't shake it no matter what I did. I asked for prayer, I sought counseling, opened up to my friends and family, and it wasn't until I had a heart to heart, real conversation with Jesus. He simply told me, "As much as you want to quit life and come to Me, this isn't the way that actually leads to you being with Me."

 

     A person might wonder how can a person want to commit suicide if they have Jesus in their life? Well... as crazy as it sounds, you have to understand that one of the main ingredients found in suicide is deception. The deception that no one cares, no one understands, God isn't listening to you any longer, you are too far gone to help, and that you aren't worth what God has to offer you past, present, and future. I used to think that I'm probably not going to miss anything in life if I just fade away, and that no one is going to notice anyway. But I'm here today ever grateful and thankful to those who took the time to invest in my life and walked with me until I was no longer deceived about the worth of life. My life!    James Green